The Queen Of Hearts

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

12:58 AM ;

the Literature of pathetic fallacy motivated a deep n excess sense of melancholic in me thruóut the day... the weather really dint help me get better..

i dint want to go out the whole of today. so i spend the day in relatively deeep n intellectual n emotional thoughts. however. things didnt get better... i watched some VCDs and hang ard at home.... wadever thought n worries came to me.. i remind myself to ask for help from the Lord.

nevertheless.. buddies arranged a gathering ... perhaps a post mine xmas outing... n they actually forced me out.. forced.. we went to Island Creamery . the Wine place.. n had chicken wings... i was surprised how infront of them i didnt need to pretend nor hide my emotions. i was so silent tt i didnt talk much. i admit it was so not myself. bcos normally i have the most to say.

howver. the ice cream failed.. thick creammmy chewy chocolaty ice cream didnt make me warm, or happier.... i reallly tot it will.. but nt this time around.. yet, it was the semi-bitter white wine i requested ... and the juicy oily chicken wings tt actually made me 2% happier.

i was feeling warm n hot on the surface, (onthe skin, cos of the alcohol) .. but the ambience was so totally cold, dim, romantic? n most imptly the kind of envt which will set ANYONE THAT IS PROBLEMATIC, in tat sense, THINK...... or.... where MOSSSTTTTTTT thoughts roam... quite wildy , i suppose

they say they c bubbles frm my head ... they knew i was dreamin.. yes. i did.. God knows wad

i still wan to complain abt the weather.. it really didnt make me ffeeel better. i see no sunshine.. is tt a kind of bad omen? ydae nite.. the xmas nite... it started raining... all the way... till now//

wads wrong.. wad happen.. the heavy droplets of rain..... they fell on me... heavily.... quite painfully i thought..

give me the sunshine can? my dear Lord..

for my sake.. please...

i need that lil' glimpse of hope... if u willl dear God