The Queen Of Hearts

Monday, May 08, 2006

4:28 PM ;

i had a bad day.. really bad day.

my bad day started ydae nite... realised tt the lollipop flower i have not eaten since vday starts to attract some ants... i've got no choice but to take out 1 by 1 to put inside fringe... flower gone..

this morning... my tie gt dismantled ... i remembered tellin him to help me tie one.. with the nice nice ingot solid solid shaped tie... n it was so of my length... i did not take out the tie to re-tie whatsoever since day1.. yes.. it gt dismantled.. tie with solid solid nice nice ingot shaped, and the one of my length exactly,,, gone...

symbolic significance???... like.... tell me about it man.. *shrugs

mr sas's lesson this afternoon.. checking of journal... only 3 person in the cls completed it.. he scolded us for 1/2 an hr... scold.. yea... n could tell he really was disappointed... he gave us 1 mth to do it... yet ony 3 completed. i finished it... but i noe for myself it was nt a welldone piece of work...
existentialism questioned..
months to a's questioned...
"if u cant manage ur time, if u feel tt u r so stressed up, blame it on urself ... "
"and if u noe u r weak, u ought to bbe working harder."
pj, wad r u doing..

i m still so so traumatized... like. .. yah...

nt the end of the day.

quarrelled with a fren i really trusted..
mistook for my expression, actions n he realised tt he put too much trust in me when i dont..

just wad the hell is my problem.. is it tt everything i do, every expression made, is always flawed..
everything is going so wrong.. including me myself..
just wassup with this life man..

n wad if i say this is still nt the end..

reached home, bathed n bro watches tv... babbling on phone..
this is his mid yr week mind u... n he's freakkin enjoyin life like some iddiot..
told him to switch it off, study for just this wk, he turned off n continue on him phone tok-cocking..
told him to go n really study.. he shouted at me, threw the sofa cushion.. n make noise by banging the phone down, walkin with heavy footsteps, n finally, slammed his door...
inside the room i cld tell he was playin with basketball, or whatever, he wasnt studyin at all..

so this is wad i get..

so whats more? its barely 5pm.1/4 more of a day to go thru..

is this how u define monday blues?

is this something like pathetic fallacy?
no.. i noe my stuffs well... pathetic fallacy have the Nature Elements involved..

thank God at least its not raining..