The Queen Of Hearts

Thursday, March 16, 2006

9:54 AM ;

thu... 4 more days to exam day...
read mr yeo's email.. stop n think, what have u done for the past 3 days..

i m nt guilty of any charges, i know myself tt i have done quite a lot of studying..
but still, still gt so much nt done, readings nt read, lecture nt understood, stuffs nt memorised..

to u, who might or might not read this, i m sorry...
sorry tt i cant acc u to the party.. i know how much u wanted to go.. if there's any reason tt i will go, 1st is the bdae gal, 2nd is u..

for the past few days i've been thinking a lot to myself... wads the opportunity cost of gg. it will really be too much..

thu, start preparing, time wasted... go out... come back on fri.. tired.. slp, time wasted... next day, energy-less.. how to study.. fri nite.. oh wait, evening, church sem, whole day on sat, church sem, sun... church...

as pris says, we r nt smarty panties.. if we let ourselves off for a while, we r screwed.. really screwed...

aniways, i m really v sorry for nt acc-ing u 2dae... i noe its hard to understand this situation, but taking into account again tt i dun wanna b restless to b in church on fri, i really cant go.. if i cant compromise my faith bcos of studies, i have to sacrifice my enjoyment time, my slp time etc..

u noe its hard to make this decision, esp when it concerns 2 of ur best frens. i dunno how many sorrys i can say, i dunno how to say to make u understand... really, i just cant afford to regret having fun at the expense of my studies...

i love u both , u noe i do...

good luck..