The Queen Of Hearts

Monday, December 26, 2005

2:51 PM ;

its a monday 2dae... 3.06 now.... realised what a week i have gone thru.. n yes... all thanks to God...

mon to thu was church camp! once again experienced the refreshing time of God's power... His grace and mercy that allows such healing.... have fun with my beloved bro + sis... Amazing gRace, the bidding part wen they spend $$$ bidding for toilet papers.... BBQ nite.... chit-chats... hahaha....

sat was finally our UthNity very own X'mas Party... theme was : I saw my Bad Hair Angel on White Xmas... we went iwan's hse in the morning to prepare food n stuffs... den went church finally for the party... was the MC for the night.. n we really had soo much fun man!..... we scraped A LOT A LOT A LOT of 'stereo'foam board on the ground....n it really really looks super WHITE CHRISTMAS man! serious....it was super good... can see every1 throwing those foam at each other.... the night was really great.... played games.. sing songs.. dance dance.... haha.. rmb youths, Chicken Dance? hahaha..... man! joy was undescribable..... really thank God for my bros + sis for making tt day so greaat....

hahha.. n yes.... shouting thru'out the week.. nw my voice is so half-gone.....

came across this webbie tt requires me to ans some qns...
its usuallythose bo-liao website.... like "what color do u belong to" n stuffs like this.. dun believe in this.. but sometimes will juz try 'for fun'

qns: r u a thinker or a feeler...

i find myself not being able to answer this qns..

wen put in certain circumstances.... i find myself often only act with wad i feel like wanting to do... i hear myself often saying things like "i will think abt it" yet, its always a chore to start the process of thinking... thinking wisely... thinking will a clearer mind.. mmm... its inevitable to think before make a decision ... i hope i will realise this soon.. so soon

Monday, December 12, 2005

8:15 PM ;

I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked Side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels. My angel guide stopped in front of the first section and said,

"This is the Receiving Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received."

I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world. Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section.

The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section. Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed and delivered to the living persons who asked for them."

I noticed again how busy it was there. There were many angels working hard at that station, since so many blessings had been requested and were being packaged for delivery to Earth

Finally at the farthest end of the long corridor we stopped at the door of a very small station. To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there, idly doing nothing.

"This is the Acknowledgment Section," my angel friend quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed.

"How is it that? There's no work going on here?" I asked.

"So sad," the angel sighed. "After people receive the blessings that they asked for, very few send back acknowledgments

"How does one acknowledge God's blessings?" I asked.

"Simple," the angel answered. "Just say, "Thank you, Lord"

"What blessings should they acknowledge?" I asked

"If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep .. you are richer than 75% of this world." "If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy." "And if you get this on your own computer, you are part of the 1% in the world who has that opportunity."

Also "If you woke up this morning with more health than illness..... you are more blessed than the many who will not even survive this day." "If you have never experienced the fear in battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation... you are ahead of 700 million people in the world" "If you can attend a church meeting without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture or death.. you are envied by, and more blessed than, three billion people in the world."

"If your parents are still alive and still married .. you are very rare." "If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm, you are unique to all those in doubt and despair."

"Ok, what now? How can I start?" If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that someone was thinking of you as very special and you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world who cannot read at all.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

9:42 PM ;

juz came across this email..... n this gurl came acrossed my mind...

SHIYIN!!! THIS IS FOR U!

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In primary one, your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the washroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In primary two, your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In primary three, your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours, you left it on the bus.

In primary four, your idea of a good friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework that you forgotten to do the previous night.

In primary five, your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In primary six, your idea of a friend was someone who comforted you and lent their shoulder to you when you received your PSLE results.

In secondary one, your idea of a friend was the person who helped you to pass the ''love letter'' to your crush/stead.

In secondary two, your idea of a good friend was the person who comforted you when you broke up with your boy/girl friend, saying that the person is not even worth of your tears

In secondary three, your idea of a good friend was the person who would come over to your house and help you decide on which clothes to wear on your first date, although she had her date waiting for her.

In secondary four, your idea of a good friend was the person who would help you in the "O" levels' examination when you had chicken pox and on the examination day, you recovered but your friend had the disease and had to stay home for a week

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!!!

8:55 PM ;

went to msia ydae morning.... cousin's wedding....

he gt a gurl pregnant... so... have to face the consequence lor..

the wedding was... BORING! nth much .... like my sister said.. we like only entertain ourselves lor... the both of go up n sing karaoke... den take pics among ourselves... my auntie n uncle nt really happy.... the bride the face so fierce... haiyo... so not like a wedding...

it juz came across my mind.. tt recently it seems tt i m facing too much drama ard me.. firstly is tt.... den is this shotgun marriage... nvm abt tt... but the wedding day itself so much happened..... unhappiness ..... yah... too much drama.. i cldnt have seen in in real life 2dae.. but i just did... too much to b taken at a go....

once again, u have to face the consequences.... i so agree.. after seeing so much tt happens

Thursday, December 08, 2005

10:49 PM ;

decided to just look through all my emails... have not been reading them for the past few months! ha!

this is interesting!

43% of all statistics are useless.
A penny saved is worthless.
A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
A snooze button is a poor substitute for no alarm clock at all.
[bumper snicker] DANGER! I drive like you do.
Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me, either. Just leave me alone.
Does killing time damage eternity?
Don't assume malice for what stupidity can explain.
Don't question authority. It hasn't got a clue!
Drive carefully. 90% of the people in the world are caused by accidents.
Dyslexics have more fnu.
Employment applications always ask who is to be notified in case of an emergency. I think you should write "A good doctor!"
Even hypocrites admire righteousness. That is why they imitate it.
Every day I get up and look through the Forbes list of the richest people in America. If I'm not there, I go to work.
Experience is the one thing you have plenty of when you're too old to get a job.
Frogs have it easy; they can eat what bugs them.
He who dies with the most toys, is, nonetheless, still dead.
I am not fat, I am a nutritional overachiever.
I doubt, therefore I might be.
I know. I know. People say, "It's the thought that counts, not the gift," but couldn't people think a bit bigger?!
I used to be clueless about math, but I turned that around 360 degrees.
I used to think I was indecisive, but now I'm not sure.
I was going to procrastinate, but I put it off.
If a book about failures doesn't sell, is it a success?
If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Is a person who leaves the church having an out-of-the-Body experience?
Life is not so much a matter of position as of disposition.
Nothing is fool-proof to a sufficiently-talented fool.
One of the greatest happiness's of life is the conviction that we are loved--loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.
Princess, having had sufficient experience with princes, seeks frog.
Psychiatrists say that 1 of 4 people are mentally ill. Check 3 friends. If they're okay, you're it.
Swallowing your pride seldom leads to indigestion.
The average American takes six months to pay off holiday, credit-card bills.
The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits.
The facts, though interesting, are simply irrelevant.
The idea is to die young as late as possible.
The word "love" can have many different meanings...it loses value when overly used and has no value at all if never spoken or shown to others.
We are born naked, wet, and hungry. Then things get worse.
What do you call people who are afraid of Santa? Claustrophobic
Why is it that we recite at a play and play at a recital?
Wife to husband: "This Christmas let's give each other sensible gifts, like ties and fur coats."
"Write a wise saying and your name will live forever." - Anonymous
Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace. And your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace.
Youth looks ahead, old age looks back, and middle age just looks tired.

SO SO LAME

Sunday, December 04, 2005

6:14 PM ;

i dunno why i am feeling super hyper today.. or shld i say... was feeling? i tried my best to smile... to laugh... to b crazy as much as possible... i begin to search myself... m i really myself? perhaps its bcos when u feel ultra different, den u will react not-accordingly.... for me, its the opposite reaction . just that for my case, its a little extreme .... isnt it?

i dunno... i went home n i continue to search myself.. i find that it is all a show... perhaps i am used to such 'shows' that i myself dont even noe when is real or when is otherwise? like i said, i am used to all these crap.... the crazy laughter i hear that is coming out of me everitime i am w my close ones... but when i am alone... i m so different... come to think of it, nth wrong... cant possibly laugh crazily to myself when i am alone correct? something is wrong.... yet, nth seems to be wrong... mmm...

i noe i noe i noe... not only i am used to it... ppl ard me too... they have been hearing me, seeing me crack jokes, laugh at the un-'laughable' n do silly stuffs ... if 1 day or for a long period of time i am not 'myself' ppl will find it odd.. ppl wun b used to it... ppl will miss 'the-myself' so i had rather to be that peijun they have always known... n for myself, i willl find it for myself....

if i can be like this, i dun c the reason y he cant.. so now who is the victim? n who is the 1 putting on that super sad face ard... i dunno the reason for that expression... but definitely its affecting so many ppl... if u r wise enuf... u shld notice it... wad a move, the 1 affected is as normal .. or shld i again say trying to be as normal as possible.. n wad r u doing? c'mon man.... fill me with that kind of knowledge man

i try to reason with the things said long ago... n of cos the things said quite recently... i try to find clues that will convince myself that u r still the past u... i tried... another part of me agrees .. yet a stronger part of doesnt... do u understand that its time to get on with ur life? there's no single person that can change wadever that had happened except Jesus Himself? r u really clinging on to His words nw? do u noe that u have to face the consequences nw that so much have happened... do u noe that no matter how bad things r Jesus can make things right.... do u noe .. do u noe... do u noe that u need to ask from Jesus for another chance, not me??

i heard frm some1 again abt some unfaithful relationships going on in another part of this land.... oh yah.. it has happened so many times... in fact i shldnt b shocked... in fact , m i supposed to be used to it since it has happened to myself .. for like 2 times? i tot it was gonna b the last time.. looks like its nort...
i told my friend that i m doubting so much now...

i dun need any relationship nw.... gimme a break... i noe its generalising ... that all guys r like this... i sorry friends... i noe some saints out there r just some innocent souls.. but i just found out that the most-perfect him turns out to be not... forgive me... its just how my human mind thinks... esp when it happens to u urself...

i need a v special time nw with my family.. my friends... my sisters n brothers.... n my books.. oh yah.. my teachers.. my passion.... i need a break frm love love stuffs... just gimme a BREAK... so long i m leading a peacceful n quiet life... y muz u do this to me.... its such a torture...

u r tryin hard to crept inside my heart.. u r almost here... but u decided to turn back awhile.. nw.. there's no more space for u to enter

being sorry doesnt need to be shown.. its the feeling where one can sense

i just wan to be serious with my Maker during this period of time.. if i perish right nw, i wun have any regrets.. bcos i realised long ago n i m reminded that He's all that i ever need... n u, need to make this choice too